Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in megan322's InsaneJournal:

Friday, June 5th, 2009
11:18 pm	So all kinds of crazy shiznit has been going down @ my house. First of all, KSU cited me for maximum hours, which means I have gone to college too long and i have to appeal the decision if I hope to ever receive financial aid again. Also my grandma is dying. She is in Hospice house and is not expected to make it through the weekend. Also my lease is up in 25 days and I am not sure where I am moving to. And my sister is pissing me off because she is an emotional imbecile.And I just feel like everything is going wrong and I can't fix any of it and I don't know what to do and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. So i thought I would spew it all here and hopefully not think about it again till tomarrow. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 9th, 2007
8:13 pm	sobriety sucks I've been having a hard time lately dealing with the isolation that my sobriety has brought to my life. I know that I should be reaching out, looking for supports, but I'm surrounded by the people who won't or can't discuss my addiction. I feel like the strain of "pretending" to be normal is making me have some really horrendous cravings. So to combat this, I have been hiding in my room like a teenager, seeking my solace from the internet and crappy tv. I do realize that this is the last thing I should be doing. Isolation and boredom are the enemies. I've been taking my rotten mood out on everyone around me, and that is not helping with either problem. It's gotten bad enough that I am considering seeking out an AA meeting, even though until now I have vehemently rejected their "higher power". I firmly believe that the only higher power is my own conscious or conscience. whatever. Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
5:46 pm	loft " You graduated college. For God's sake wash your vagina." -overheard at the loft http://www.staterinteractive.com/blogs/sections/overheard-at-ksu/ this is the funniest thing I have seen in weeks. gotta love the loft. Current Mood: giggly (Comment on this)
Friday, August 31st, 2007
12:35 am	jones soda candy I am in candy heaven. I was able to score four flavors of jones soda candy. Best day ever. i also got some icebreaker energy mints. fun times. Current Mood: geeky (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 25th, 2007
12:02 am	I'll try to be nicer, if you'll try to be smarter, deux Retail makes me hate people. Stupid, lazy, white trash, uneducated (I realize this is redundant) mean, nasty people who think that I should serve them with a smile, ignore their blatant theft and kowtow to their every whim. Fuck you and your ignorant cousin/husband. Put some damn clothes on, wash your filthy children, and get some fucking class, education, something to give your pathetic life reason to exist. Because seriously, I am about to end it for you. I will suffocate your ass with a god dammed shopping bag, oh wait, those wont even hold a roll of paper towels, maybe i can stab you with my box cutter. Better yet, I'll just stab myself and get it over with. i wish i was stupid so i wouldn't care how fucked up people are. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 23rd, 2007
8:24 pm	giddy school supply time The best thing about fall semester is the new school supplies. I admit it, I'm a total freak about new office products. New binders and folders and notebooks, oh my! Also new pens and pencils, and sticky notes, and other things meant to keep me organized, but they never do. I love shiny new paper products! Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
9:17 pm	Smile Lily Allen When you first left me I was wanting more But you were doing that girl next door, what ja do that for When you first left me I didn't know what to say I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day I was so lost back then But with a little help from my friends I found a light in the tunnel at the end Now you're calling me up on the phone So you can have a little whine and a moan And it's only because you're feeling alone At first when I see you cry, yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile At worst I feel bad for a while, but then I just smile I go ahead and smile Whenever you see me you say that you want me back And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack I couldn't stop laughing, no I just could help myself See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell I was so lost back then But with a little help from my friends I found a light in the tunnel at the end Now you're calling me up on the phone So you can have a little whine and a moan And it's only because you're feeling alone At first when I see you cry, yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile At worst I feel bad for a while, but then I just smile I go ahead and smile lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala At first when I see you cry, yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile At worst I feel bad for a while, but then I just smile I go ahead and smile Current Mood: lazy (Comment on this)
9:15 pm	Freak on a Leash So today went a little better than I expected. School shopping is never a fun time. Damn rotten kids. I wish I could get over my compulison to spend every dollar in my possesion. On the upside, I found some fantabulous dayglo green nailpolish. All my books have arrived for fall semester, starting on the 27. I haven't ever tried to take 19 credit hours before and I am a little nervous. I'll keep you posted. ;) (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 16th, 2007
10:23 pm	I hate people So, I started this journal as a backup to my lj, cuz shady shit is going down over there. Also, my husband is unaware of insanejournal, so I can post to my hearts content without fear of reprisal. I don't like people on my good days, and today is not a good day. I hate so many people being around. I hate people I don't know making me feel like a stranger in my own home, oh wait that's right it's not my home. I hate feeling like a guest at best, and a wayward child at worst. I hate being made to feel inferior. I hate feeling so unworthy. I hate feeling sick. I hate not being able to hear. I hate being sober. So, now that I appear to hate everything, maybe I can think of somethings I like. I like order. I like control. I like having input. I like definite plans. I like a rigid schedule. I like the anonymity of the internet. I like being sober. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: ODB-Baby I got yo money (Comment on this)